I wonder if it would make a difference if I told him what is going on what would he say and how would he react? I wonder if he would stay with me? marry me? or if he would just pit me until I am gone and move on to something else, someone else? Would he become spiteful? resent me.
Would he understand, have compassion? still love me and think that I am beautiful. Live out the rest of my days with me in peace?
I wonder if I should tell him. If I did tell him, then how would he react. Would I scare him? I am scared myself. Could I count on him? I don’t know, but I am scared and need him to understand. To love me in spite of it. To be with me, for as long as we can be…. still I wonder should I tell him?